Emilly

emilly_709 @ 2009-04-22T16:08:00

2009-04-22T18:45:23Z

guess whose back,
back again.

hey fatty.
you're done for the day.

lets see:

a smoothie (500 cals almost)
cracker binge/as usual. (1005 cals)
2 apples (180 cals? )
soup        (300 cals? )

so you're at least at 480.
and you obviously didn't purge all those other calories.
today you failed.
do better tomorrow bitch.

ps: your bmi is up in the twenties bitch.
       do you want to be a cow forever?
       take your fat ass for a run. now.

emilly_709 @ 2008-01-11T16:58:00

2008-01-11T20:35:36Z

today...
terrible..

gained?
114/115 again.

felt like i ate alot..
oatmeal in the morning -140
10 saltine crackers - 129
an apple - 80
= 340
excercised/burned 220 so thats 129
drank some booster juice smoothie.. lets say 120
purged it.
(and im scared that i backed up the toilet...)
then i had supper.. roughly 140 cals.

so i guess my total for today is maybe from 350-400?
ughh.

nothing else tonightt. (:

emilly_709 @ 2008-01-09T17:12:00

2008-01-09T20:56:56Z

ugh,

breakfast: 1 microwave pancake ( cut apart alot ) - 60cals? and an apple,
so approx 140 total..?
lunch: small apple - approx 55cals..
&& a bag and a half of small candy.. let just say 80 cals.. (ugh)
so total 135
binged when i came home on saltine crackers? so approx 250.
dinner: campbells low fat noodles approx 140 cals.

thats 665! :(
and add on approx 48 for like 20 grapes....
THATS 714?!
gah.
gonna try to go burn that much on my cousins excerise bike..
i wish i had one, maybe for my birthday?

Burned 400 on the excercise bike (:
so that brings the total down to roughly
314 cals total!

DO BETTER TOMORROW! (:

proudness (:

2008-01-08T20:32:27Z

REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF TODAY. (:
so today, i had 2 microwave pancakes in the morning.. 80cals each..
but i picked them apart alot, and i hid some in my pocket to throw out.
so many around 150cals from those. I also had about 40 cals of juice..

went to school.
came home early..
took a bath && had a nap until 3:30 ♥

then 4:45
ate low fat, low cal, low sodium cambells noodles..200cals per serving..
i ate maybe 130 cals.
then i ate an apple. 60 cals... maybe?

so < 380 today. (:

basketball practise in a half hour.. for an hour and a half..
just burnin up the cals.. and then obviously ~~no eating afterwards.~~

i ate a clemintine, and around half an apple.. it tasted so good, and its not even fatty (:

i feel good for once. ♥

emilly_709 @ 2008-01-07T19:08:00

2008-01-07T23:50:22Z

DAMN.
i was doing so well today.

it seems that i always end up having a 1000 cal binge in the evening.
THAT HAS GOT TO STOP.

i purged.
ugh.
first time in like 8 months. i ~~can't~~ wont make that a new habit.

well at least i feel a little better..
not as many cals in me now (:

TOMORROWS PLAN:
Breakfast 7:50am: small pancakes/apple juice..     approx 150cals.
Dinner 6:30 pm: small plate of noodles   approx 200 cals?
* buy new low fat noodles *
Also, may have an apple ? (:   so at leasts it's under 400.

115!!!!
yay (:

school

2008-01-07T22:39:09Z

School has everything. I mean really though.
- go to school at 8:00 am.
- come home at 3:30 pm. Thats 7 1/2 hours without food!!!
Then just come home, do some homework( or check the community c: ),
until it's 5:00 pm then have your supper.
there we go your done for the night!

not to mention all the thinspo you get at school!?
i mean you see the popular thin girls walking around the halls as if they own them.
wouldn't you like to be one of them?
i know i would.

if i stay on this path, who knows, maybe i'll become pretty, and ~~perfect~~ enough to join their little perfect world. (:

i hate food.

2008-01-06T21:30:00Z

it seems that all i think about lately is food and calories.
my friends don't talk to me anymore..
maybe its because im disgusting and fat.
if i had control over my life, maybe my parents would like me,
and i'd have friends to invite to my birthday.
i feel so full, gross, and disgusting.
i just don't want him to leave me,
he stuck with me last time, i don't want to hurt him..
but i need this. i need some say.

tomorrow:       - approx 150 cals in the morning :(
                         - no food from 8am-5pm
                         - dinner.   <300 cals
TOTAL: APPROX 450 ?

stay focussed.

2008-01-06T05:09:04Z

NOTE TO SELF;
all you ever do is eat.
like, do you realize how gross you look right now?
STAY FOCUSSED!
your parents hate you, and they think your selfish.
YOU DONT DESERVE FOOD.
so stop going through the cupboards to binge on anything you can get your hands on.
Why don't you finally take control?!
go for a run?
burn some calories?
reach perfection?

im not tired.
but im going to bed.
CALORIE COUNT STARTS
tomorrow